My intention for writing this blog is to allow full expression from my soul and to be of service to our ever beautiful mother Earth.
When explaining my calling and intentions of why I work offshore, people often ask me lots of questions about living on a supply ship to the oil and gas industry. So I will also be sharing my stories of working on a ship surrounded by men, traveling the world.
My first memories of communing with nature were as a child. At stressful times (which were a lot), I’d take off to the garden and sit under the trees. I could feel and sense wisps of light and movement around me. I would wonder what’s that?I’d feel sensations on my face and would feel soothed by these energies.
As I grew up, I’d take off into nature more. I started hiking in the Southern Alps in New Zealand, hearing the voices of the accent stones and monuments of the Alps. The more I trusted and listened to my intuition, and the more I allowed my sensitive part of myself come to the light, increased sensations and magic happened within my inner world and the environments.
For instance: one time, a friend and I were meandering around Castle rocks an hour or two out of Christchurch. I went and layed on a goliath of a rock and all of a sudden — I was taken aback to being a baby in a womb. I was in a red and black enviroment, and I sensed to follow the umbilical cord. I was taken to a place that I saw myself laying kumara skins onto a wound and tying it up with a rough cloth made of mokamoka, looking down at the hard packed earth I had bare feet, a pui pui skirt, and a cloak wrapped around me. I was brown skinned and felt happy, I felt myself saying prayers or chanting, thanking the leaves and trees for their medicine.
I came back knowing and feeling I was connected to the land and a healer.
Later, in my mid-twenties, I was active in a Seven Rays Meditation group. This form of meditation is based on the influence of the ascended masters of the seven rays. eEach master has specific energies or a concept. (For example, the first ray has a concept of will or power; the colour is red; the astrological sign these energies rule are Taurus and Pisces.)
As a group, we would use our intent to focus and use visualization to call in Master Morya and Manu to bring in this energy to us in the group to influence everything with in us and our environments. With these beautiful souls that heard the call to heal self and our mother, Papatuinuki. (After 20 years of being friends, they still hold earth healing meditation weekly to this day.) I know these souls are from my star family. They helped me to trust and heal deeper to bring back the messages and share.
Depending on the master and ray of the week, I would experience the walls of the hall expanding beyond the limitations of physical matter, as well as my mind and heart. These were truly amazing times being of service to spirit. At these times, I felt like I was one with the whole of life, messages from my tipuna, ancestors that walked before me and mother nature wisping and unlocking energetic emotional blocks within my physical body and heart, we were one.
Trees would release their secrets, plants would scream at me to ask the owners to water more, change it to a bigger pot or crystals would ask to be put outside in the moon or rain for cleaning. It felt like all of nature was wanting to communicate, buzzing with life at the chance of being heard. It felt so natural so real and alive. The visions I saw and messages I received felt so connected to a bigger energy than my little self.
It was such a secret world that I’d only talk to trusted friends about these experiences, for fear of being judged and criticized.
Then, a friend lent me a book called The Findhorn Community. The Findhorn Community started in 1962 by Peter and Eileen Caddy and Dorothy Maclean. All three had followed disciplined spiritual paths for many years. The basis of the garden was (and still is) working in harmony and co-creation with nature, where it became famous for growing 40 pound cabbages in the harshest environments in Scotland.
Dorothy discovered she was able to intuitively contact the overlighting spirits of plants – which she called angels, and then devas – who gave her instructions on how to make the most of their garden. She and Peter translated this guidance into action, and with amazing results. From the barren sandy soil of the Findhorn Bay Caravan Park grew huge plants, herbs and flowers of dozens of kinds, most famously the now-legendary 40-pound cabbages. I drunk those words, the emotions of joy that came up. These people created a thriving eco community committed to their spiritual path expanding the garden in harmony with nature.
These conscious dedicated souls were directed in meditation by nature spirits what to do, how to do it and when to do it. I love this. Trust, trusting that we are looked after. I love how when we listen to our heart and let ourselves be guided by father/mother/God anything is possible. What messages do the oil devas want to share, our mother herself?
I feel the deep yearning in myself to live more in accordance with papatuanuku, my heart, mind and soul. How about you?